Post by Jin Min-jun on May 18, 2021 23:17:12 GMT -5
Note: Whenever speech is written in this colour that character is actually speaking in Korean and I am just writing the English translation of what they're saying.
Trigger Warning: Violence/Death
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God it's good to be king... it's crazy feeling on top of the world when you know most of it still sees you as some worthless street punk. Fuck I don't care though. Seeing a whole neighborhood of kids looking up to me... depending on me... it feels fucking good. And it feels better doing it with someone on my side... watching my back.. helping with every bloody nose... every cut and bruise..
I look to my right hand and see it holding someone else's. My eyes trail up their arm to see who's. I can't quite make out the face, but my heart knows it's yours... it's always yours.
I smile softly as we head towards home with the spoils of another hard day's work of Robin Hood-ing our way to some cash. It isn't much, but it's enough that every kid on the block should be able to surprise their folks with some bread... maybe milk if they're lucky.
Min-jun: You know it never feels like enough..
? ? ?: What?
Min-jun: The money. We hustle all day and... I wish I could do more for everyone. I even tried to get a job at the convenience store by school... wouldn't give me a shot said he wasn't going to hire.. a thug.
? ? ?: He called you a thug? Rude. Minnie you're doing your best... hell you're doing more than anyone else.
I know you're right. Honestly if anyone else told me that I'd shoot down their attempts to make me feel better in a second flat.... but you've always got this way of breaking down my walls... one day I'll be able to give you the world.. just gotta push harder... be faster and smarter... hustle more... I'll find a way. Help get everyone out of this fuckin slum.
We continue walking down the road home and even though we don't seem to get any closer to where we're going I really don't care. All that matters is that I have your hand in mine. The rest of the world just seems to blur... all the noise fades out except our foot steps and the sound on my bat bouncing off a chain link fence as we keep walking.
Clink!
Clink!
Clink!
Clink!
BANG!
Was that a gun? Fuck get down!
We both drop and after a moment when it seems like whatever fired is long gone I shake your shoulder to let you know the coast is clear. . . but you don't stir. Then I start to notice red dots seep through your shirt.
Min-jun: You're okay! You have to be okay! Stay with me! I can't lose you! FUCK!!!
I try to stop the bleeding, but it's too late. By now everything's red.
Your shirt.
My hands.
The ground.
The sky.
I slam my fists against the pavement and tears just pour out from my eyes.
I sit there for what feels like an eternity crying over your body... like somehow it would change anything..
CRACK!
I watch in horror as your head snaps around 180 degrees.
? ? ?:Everyone else has to suffer for your actions Minnie. We always get caught in the crossfire. When is it your turn?
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Fuck my heart is racing.... fuck it's dark... of course it's dark it's night stupid... just breath Min-jun... gotta slow it down. Last thing you need is to pass out from a panic attack... and have to hope that Aph or Sora somehow stumble into the room and are alert enough to make sure you aren't dead or something. Just slow it all down.
My eyes dart around the pitch black hotel room as I clutch the blankets against my chest as if they would somehow take the panic away.
Min-jun: It's my fault.. I fucked it all up..
I was doing so well... thought I had gotten rid of these bullshit nightmares... and then you had to call... to bring it all back. I just.. I need someone right now. Aph's probably not in the best state right now... or ever... love her to death, but... not exactly the "therapist" type. Sora's... he's great and all, but I just don't know that this is something I can unload on him... and as of late I just get the vibes that he doesn't really trust me... so can I really trust him with my bullshit?
No it's gotta be you... has to be... you're the only one who's kept me off the ledge..
I pick up my phone from the bedside stand and shakily punch in the number. It rings....
and rings...
and rings...
and...
Nothing.
As the tone for your voicemail goes off I sit in silence for a second struggling to find my breath... let alone the words.
Min-jun: I... I'm sorry .. I know you're probably at work... I'm just really struggling right now... and I just need someone to snap me out of it and you're the only person that I know who can so... call me back if you can and .. if you want I guess.. I'll be up.
I hang up and the light from the phone screen dims to nothing.
I feel so alone right now... I hate feeling this fucking weak.... but shit... at least no one can see my tears in the dark.
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I came to Revo1 with one purpose. I'm not here to fulfill my need for danger and pain. I'm not here to boost views for my failed movies. I'm not even really here for the Glory. I'm here for what comes with it: Money.
Now I know that might make me sound shallow... sounds like some shit Jason Ryan would say... but that's the truth. I'm not some greedy bastard like J-Ry though... I'm not tryna buy mansions and flash off some tacky ass jewelry. Naw... see they say money can't buy happiness and that's clear with people like Jason. Supposedly all the money in the world and yet still a miserable son of a bitch. Your money hasn't bought you too many wins... hell the one you've gotten seemed like quite the fuckin fluke. Certainly aren't the top dog you claim you used to be. But that's what this tourny is for right? Reclaiming that Glory. Tryna build back up to the top... to the throne, but you've gotten ahead of yourself Jason... telling us to kiss your ring and "acknowledge you"? Bro I can bet my girl Aph's gonna acknowledge your face with her fist. I won't even be seeing you in this tourny.
Jalen... you're in the same fucking sitch too. What's that Katy Perry Song? Hot and cold? That's been your time here. Coming in like a big deal taking out Chase... only to cool off damn quick when Sora and I made sure we busted you open. Sure Arcana carried you to a win.. and you got handed the easiest opponent in this Glory tourny... but you're standing across from my boy Sora... the guy that made you bleed before...and trust.. he's gonna do it again.
Then we got the newest kid on the block: Lockheart. See we could have ourselves quite the fight. Both strikers... get some UFC shit going here. Word on the street though... you've got a history of head injuries. You know what my specialty is? You know what I gave to "Not" Dweck in Round 1? You said before your match last week losing matters to you. If you lose you want to know why... well if you make it through Sierra... and you trade kicks with me I can tell you why you're gonna lose.... it's cause everyone blacks out after a Shot of Jin.
But first Mags has gotta make it through Sierra... and that might be easier said than done. I mean she is the absolutely not made-up Supervillainweight Champion. Five feet of flying fury. Sierra's quick and unpredictable. Normally that would have someone like me worried. She could lucha her ass around the ring before I could land a kick. I'm not worried though... see quick and unpredictable... that's how you thrive and survive on the streets. That's how you make sure that when you get the crosshairs put on you that you dodge every bullet. You might be the most evil villain in the world... but I'mma serve you some street justice.
The toughest challenges though... they're the people that got my back here. Aph and Sora have been my ride or dies... specially Aph. It's gonna suck to have to throw down with either of you, but you both know if I gotta do it... well I'll knock you both out. I said earlier I'm in this for the money... I said money can't buy happiness... but you know what it can buy? Food... shelter.. school supplies... money keeps people's heads above water. You know I need the money that comes with winning Glory. Y'all know that I have a neighborhood of kids depending on ME to make sure their families get the extra coin they need.
You two know that I've put myself and my loved ones at risk tryna make sure that my chosen family of misfits the world fucked over have their heads above water. That's why I came here. I needed a way to do that without anyone else getting caught in the crossfire. I couldn't keep putting people in danger... so now I'm the only one taking bullets... and I know you two are gunning for me in Glory. And you both are pretty much gonna have to kill me to win. Losing ISN'T an option for me.... for those kids. So dive off whatever you have to... you're gonna CRASH and BURN.
Aph you've been looking for pain... I'm going to fill that need.
Sora... well you've already beaten yourself... all that self doubt... all that desperation...
I love you both... but you two have a flaw for me to take advantage of... and I will. You both take all the risks you think you need to. I'm way more careful.... if this were a deathmatch I'd say you both got the edge, but nah.... I'll hit n run... make my move when it's right.
But before I do any of that I have to crack the jaw of my newest friend Jessie Lee, our Horrorcore Champion. Of course they had to put us together right away. Leegacy vs #TuesdayNightJin. The baddest bish in the game.... and Jessie Lee. We already told everyone we're stealing the show. You're up there with Aph and Sora in my eyes... I know I'mma have a hell of a fight ahead of me... you beat Legacy's world champ... that's impressive. You survived our Last....Blood Standing match... you're tough. This time though things are different. It isn't eight of us in chaos. Is just you and me. No syringes to help you win. So when it comes down to a real fight do you stack up? Do you think calling me a ... "drongo" is gonna win this match for you? Look we're gonna be cool as hell before the bell and after the bell, but during...sheila... I'm checking your fuckin chin. I know you're gonna keep getting up.. you're a tough ass bish, but I'll keep kicking your head in til you DON'T. GET. UP.
At Glory Revo1 is gonna see the underdog that no one thinks is winning this shit... he's gonna be the last man standing. I'mma crack the skulls of my crew... my enemies... the rando's I never heard of... all of 'em. I'mma snatch all the Glory. I'mma make my neighborhood proud. I'mma make sure they have roofs over their heads and food on their tables. I'm showing everyone I'm the toughest mother fucker in this shit and I'll take every bullet shot my way and it's about time I'm alone in the crossfire. I'll take every shot because it's not just about me... my need for pain... for fame... for confidence... I have way more worth dying for.
Trigger Warning: Violence/Death
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God it's good to be king... it's crazy feeling on top of the world when you know most of it still sees you as some worthless street punk. Fuck I don't care though. Seeing a whole neighborhood of kids looking up to me... depending on me... it feels fucking good. And it feels better doing it with someone on my side... watching my back.. helping with every bloody nose... every cut and bruise..
I look to my right hand and see it holding someone else's. My eyes trail up their arm to see who's. I can't quite make out the face, but my heart knows it's yours... it's always yours.
I smile softly as we head towards home with the spoils of another hard day's work of Robin Hood-ing our way to some cash. It isn't much, but it's enough that every kid on the block should be able to surprise their folks with some bread... maybe milk if they're lucky.
Min-jun: You know it never feels like enough..
? ? ?: What?
Min-jun: The money. We hustle all day and... I wish I could do more for everyone. I even tried to get a job at the convenience store by school... wouldn't give me a shot said he wasn't going to hire.. a thug.
? ? ?: He called you a thug? Rude. Minnie you're doing your best... hell you're doing more than anyone else.
I know you're right. Honestly if anyone else told me that I'd shoot down their attempts to make me feel better in a second flat.... but you've always got this way of breaking down my walls... one day I'll be able to give you the world.. just gotta push harder... be faster and smarter... hustle more... I'll find a way. Help get everyone out of this fuckin slum.
We continue walking down the road home and even though we don't seem to get any closer to where we're going I really don't care. All that matters is that I have your hand in mine. The rest of the world just seems to blur... all the noise fades out except our foot steps and the sound on my bat bouncing off a chain link fence as we keep walking.
Clink!
Clink!
Clink!
Clink!
BANG!
Was that a gun? Fuck get down!
We both drop and after a moment when it seems like whatever fired is long gone I shake your shoulder to let you know the coast is clear. . . but you don't stir. Then I start to notice red dots seep through your shirt.
Min-jun: You're okay! You have to be okay! Stay with me! I can't lose you! FUCK!!!
I try to stop the bleeding, but it's too late. By now everything's red.
Your shirt.
My hands.
The ground.
The sky.
I slam my fists against the pavement and tears just pour out from my eyes.
I sit there for what feels like an eternity crying over your body... like somehow it would change anything..
CRACK!
I watch in horror as your head snaps around 180 degrees.
? ? ?:Everyone else has to suffer for your actions Minnie. We always get caught in the crossfire. When is it your turn?
-------------------------
Fuck my heart is racing.... fuck it's dark... of course it's dark it's night stupid... just breath Min-jun... gotta slow it down. Last thing you need is to pass out from a panic attack... and have to hope that Aph or Sora somehow stumble into the room and are alert enough to make sure you aren't dead or something. Just slow it all down.
My eyes dart around the pitch black hotel room as I clutch the blankets against my chest as if they would somehow take the panic away.
Min-jun: It's my fault.. I fucked it all up..
I was doing so well... thought I had gotten rid of these bullshit nightmares... and then you had to call... to bring it all back. I just.. I need someone right now. Aph's probably not in the best state right now... or ever... love her to death, but... not exactly the "therapist" type. Sora's... he's great and all, but I just don't know that this is something I can unload on him... and as of late I just get the vibes that he doesn't really trust me... so can I really trust him with my bullshit?
No it's gotta be you... has to be... you're the only one who's kept me off the ledge..
I pick up my phone from the bedside stand and shakily punch in the number. It rings....
and rings...
and rings...
and...
Nothing.
As the tone for your voicemail goes off I sit in silence for a second struggling to find my breath... let alone the words.
Min-jun: I... I'm sorry .. I know you're probably at work... I'm just really struggling right now... and I just need someone to snap me out of it and you're the only person that I know who can so... call me back if you can and .. if you want I guess.. I'll be up.
I hang up and the light from the phone screen dims to nothing.
I feel so alone right now... I hate feeling this fucking weak.... but shit... at least no one can see my tears in the dark.
----------------------------------------------
I came to Revo1 with one purpose. I'm not here to fulfill my need for danger and pain. I'm not here to boost views for my failed movies. I'm not even really here for the Glory. I'm here for what comes with it: Money.
Now I know that might make me sound shallow... sounds like some shit Jason Ryan would say... but that's the truth. I'm not some greedy bastard like J-Ry though... I'm not tryna buy mansions and flash off some tacky ass jewelry. Naw... see they say money can't buy happiness and that's clear with people like Jason. Supposedly all the money in the world and yet still a miserable son of a bitch. Your money hasn't bought you too many wins... hell the one you've gotten seemed like quite the fuckin fluke. Certainly aren't the top dog you claim you used to be. But that's what this tourny is for right? Reclaiming that Glory. Tryna build back up to the top... to the throne, but you've gotten ahead of yourself Jason... telling us to kiss your ring and "acknowledge you"? Bro I can bet my girl Aph's gonna acknowledge your face with her fist. I won't even be seeing you in this tourny.
Jalen... you're in the same fucking sitch too. What's that Katy Perry Song? Hot and cold? That's been your time here. Coming in like a big deal taking out Chase... only to cool off damn quick when Sora and I made sure we busted you open. Sure Arcana carried you to a win.. and you got handed the easiest opponent in this Glory tourny... but you're standing across from my boy Sora... the guy that made you bleed before...and trust.. he's gonna do it again.
Then we got the newest kid on the block: Lockheart. See we could have ourselves quite the fight. Both strikers... get some UFC shit going here. Word on the street though... you've got a history of head injuries. You know what my specialty is? You know what I gave to "Not" Dweck in Round 1? You said before your match last week losing matters to you. If you lose you want to know why... well if you make it through Sierra... and you trade kicks with me I can tell you why you're gonna lose.... it's cause everyone blacks out after a Shot of Jin.
But first Mags has gotta make it through Sierra... and that might be easier said than done. I mean she is the absolutely not made-up Supervillainweight Champion. Five feet of flying fury. Sierra's quick and unpredictable. Normally that would have someone like me worried. She could lucha her ass around the ring before I could land a kick. I'm not worried though... see quick and unpredictable... that's how you thrive and survive on the streets. That's how you make sure that when you get the crosshairs put on you that you dodge every bullet. You might be the most evil villain in the world... but I'mma serve you some street justice.
The toughest challenges though... they're the people that got my back here. Aph and Sora have been my ride or dies... specially Aph. It's gonna suck to have to throw down with either of you, but you both know if I gotta do it... well I'll knock you both out. I said earlier I'm in this for the money... I said money can't buy happiness... but you know what it can buy? Food... shelter.. school supplies... money keeps people's heads above water. You know I need the money that comes with winning Glory. Y'all know that I have a neighborhood of kids depending on ME to make sure their families get the extra coin they need.
You two know that I've put myself and my loved ones at risk tryna make sure that my chosen family of misfits the world fucked over have their heads above water. That's why I came here. I needed a way to do that without anyone else getting caught in the crossfire. I couldn't keep putting people in danger... so now I'm the only one taking bullets... and I know you two are gunning for me in Glory. And you both are pretty much gonna have to kill me to win. Losing ISN'T an option for me.... for those kids. So dive off whatever you have to... you're gonna CRASH and BURN.
Aph you've been looking for pain... I'm going to fill that need.
Sora... well you've already beaten yourself... all that self doubt... all that desperation...
I love you both... but you two have a flaw for me to take advantage of... and I will. You both take all the risks you think you need to. I'm way more careful.... if this were a deathmatch I'd say you both got the edge, but nah.... I'll hit n run... make my move when it's right.
But before I do any of that I have to crack the jaw of my newest friend Jessie Lee, our Horrorcore Champion. Of course they had to put us together right away. Leegacy vs #TuesdayNightJin. The baddest bish in the game.... and Jessie Lee. We already told everyone we're stealing the show. You're up there with Aph and Sora in my eyes... I know I'mma have a hell of a fight ahead of me... you beat Legacy's world champ... that's impressive. You survived our Last....Blood Standing match... you're tough. This time though things are different. It isn't eight of us in chaos. Is just you and me. No syringes to help you win. So when it comes down to a real fight do you stack up? Do you think calling me a ... "drongo" is gonna win this match for you? Look we're gonna be cool as hell before the bell and after the bell, but during...sheila... I'm checking your fuckin chin. I know you're gonna keep getting up.. you're a tough ass bish, but I'll keep kicking your head in til you DON'T. GET. UP.
At Glory Revo1 is gonna see the underdog that no one thinks is winning this shit... he's gonna be the last man standing. I'mma crack the skulls of my crew... my enemies... the rando's I never heard of... all of 'em. I'mma snatch all the Glory. I'mma make my neighborhood proud. I'mma make sure they have roofs over their heads and food on their tables. I'm showing everyone I'm the toughest mother fucker in this shit and I'll take every bullet shot my way and it's about time I'm alone in the crossfire. I'll take every shot because it's not just about me... my need for pain... for fame... for confidence... I have way more worth dying for.